Things haven’t been that great, a lot has been going on in the last month, at least. I don’t even know where to begin, the start should be a good idea.
Well, one of my uncles passed away a month ago, he was married to my mom’s sister. I really don’t like thinking about death, specially when one of my family is involved. I wasn’t that closed to my uncle, but i am to my cousins, they’re older than me, most of my cousins are older, but these cousins are the ones that live in the same city as me so i get to see them a little bit often. it was hard to see them so devastated and heart broken. my uncle and aunt were divorced and when i saw my cousin Patricia the first thing she told me was to not get so angry and do not hold grudges against my dad, because life is short and we don’t know when is going to end. i thought my family was invincible. yes they get sick but death that’s a whole new level. grandpa left us 18 years ago (in 3 days it’ll be 18 years) and that was it, my moms family is large she has 5 brothers and 4 sisters and we still have grandma, everyone has two kids so it’s a big family and the thought that one is gone it just hits you and i don’t like thinking who will be next or if it’s going to be soon, hopefully not.
The other thing i was supposed to graduate this december and i’m not going to. i was lazy and my lack of responsability and lazy attitude to do things got me in this mess of me staying one semester, i havent told my parents and i dont know how. i know my mom is going to be so dissapointed and i’m not sure i can deal with that. i hate doing that to her but still i do it, i don’t know what’s wrong with me.
My best friend is mad at me like big time mad at me, we just had this huge fight and i know it’s my fault, i actually told her that she should be mad at me cause i havent been there for her, now that she needs me. Something happened in her semester abroad, I was there for her when it happened, via internet at least. the thing is we don’t live in the same city, it’s actually a 2 hours flight. i wish i could be with her, damn if i could i be there, but i can’t i dont have the money for a plane ticket right now. I tried to make her understand everything will be alright, she’s just paranoid about something that might happen to her but its like 1 in a million that it can happen, and she’s making me look like i dont give a shit about it, only because i havent been available in the last 2 weeks. I don’t want to bring whats going on with me to her, how i feel right now, cause for her what she’s going through its 10 times worst. i dont know what to do.
For last, its over with the boy, yeah, we were together for 2 years and 5 months, God, i’m crying now. No one knows except my friend Ricardo, but i’m not sure how he knew. I actually thought it would never end at least not this way. I try not to think about it, when it happened i was so concentrated in finished the semester that i didnt give it a lot of thought, once i was done with school, which was last wednesday, it hit me it was over, for real and first it denial and then on friday i heard a song and i cried for maybe 3 hours, i couldnt help myself, i felt pathetic. I miss him, a lot I really do. I think at the end I wasnt enough for him and work was more important, turns out distance its a big factor. sad how everything reminds me of him, i feel pathetic and so heart broken but there’s really nothing i can do about it, but get over it and cry when i’m alone.
well that’s it, i feel like that and that’s what happened in the last month. Hope you’re all ok and doing great
xx
Koki (uncle that is like a big bro for me) wet to japan for vacation and to see the FIFA club world cup, anyway he went to a few games and travel around the city and stuff, he went to yesterday’s game were Barcelona become the champion. Today he got back and what happened when he got to the airport? Te whole Barcelona team was there! He went to the waiting room with them and took pictures with Messi and hottie Pique( which I must confess I’m madly in love with and we’ll married someday) so yeah he closed his trip like a champion.!
Today I shed some tears after hearing a few words from my uncle. Today is my uncle Arturo birthday he’s married to my aunt Martha (sister of my mom). This past Monday my aunt fell of the stairs from a 3 floor high, we were so blessed that the she didn’t broke any bone or ended up in worse than it did.
My mom and I called my uncle to said happy birthday and how much we love him and then he said something so sweet and true in so many ways, this were his words
” the best gift I could have today, is Martha”
I couldn’t help it but cry at those simple yet sweet and honest words from my uncle. Because it’s true, we’re so lucky and blessed to have my aunt with us today.
They’ve been married for 22 years, they married the same year my parents did, sadly my parents marriage didn’t last but theirs did. I see in them things I wish someday I share with that someone special I’ll have as a husband. They are together in good and bad, and yes they fight like any couple but they are together and together they continue that journey they started a long time ago.
I have a lot of memories with them, I love them and I don’t know what would I do If something happen to them or any of my uncles and aunts. I love my family too much and the thought of loosing one kills me, that’s why I always try to enjoy every moment I have with them and cherish them, you never know when it could be the last one.
Happy birthday uncle Arturo, I love you, thank you for being there for me everytime I needed that fatherly love.
Xx C
It wasn’t a really good day. One of my aunts fall the stairs 3 floors high. Thank god she’s ok and she just got ugly bumps and scratches, she was lucky to not broke any bones. We went last night to see her, is a 2 hour drive where she lives, worth it.
My mom and all of her sibling were really scared about my aunt and what could’ve happen. A 3 floor fall could end up bad, in dead, people have simple falls and die.
The life we have is just for a moment, we don’t know when it could end, never stop saying I love you to those you care about, don’t hold grudges for long you don’t know when it could be the last time you see them. Enjoy life, smile, laugh, cry do things you’re afraid. Say what you want and do what you love.
Take care lovely people and have a safe lovely day.
Xxx
She caught me off guard, I didn’t know what to answer, I couldn’t find the words I actually couldn’t make any word or sound to come out of my mouth, just randomly said that’s over nana, there’s no more ales in my life. And she was like are you ok? What happened? My aunt was sitting next to me and she hold my hand and told grandma “mom ales is not part of caro’s life anymore, so we won’t mention him for a while’.
Oh yeah my family is in San diego, I haven’t seen them in a month since I got out of school and come here. I’m happy to see them but I don’t want to go back.
Happy birthday to me lovely awesome cousin. I love you
she’s in San Francisco, i was supposed to go with her, but school got in the way so i couldn’t. im making floor plans and my drafting table is in the middle room, that connects all of the rooms, i was too lazy to go look for the mic so everyone was hearing the conversation. America is sick and has this husky voice, and sounds like a guy, we were making fun of it, then my mom went to the bathroom and she was like, “who you talking to?” “America” No, that’s a guys voice” “No, that’s America” haha it was funny, i had to turned the computer so she could see America, then my stepdad got out of his room, and asked ” what’s going on?, are you watching a funny video or something?” i was laughing and just told him it was America on skype, he also thought it was a guy. America was laughing(well trying to) and just said hello to everyone. i love that girl :)
my baby turned one year :).
Like yesterday whn I was with my uncle and aunt, 2 of my cousins and my brother, all of us in a car, going back to my aunts house after a party. My uncle saying jokes to make us laugh, my cousins and I singing along to the songs, without dancing because we aren’t able to move in the back of the car, and my aunt laughing and singing with us. I love my family a lot, and I appreciate each and everyone, all of them are so diferent in so many things but at the same time they have a lot in common. I know part of who I am today it’s because of them, and I really enjoy the talks, advice, love and everything they give to me.
I love the fact of having older cousins, and the ones that are always there for me,giving me advice, it’s amazing. I have also younger cousins, and when they ask me for advice it feels great, cause I can do what my other cousins did for me. My aunts and uncles are always there, and the fact that they see me and my brother like one of their kids, it’s a great feeling. They give me that support that maybe my parents don’t, but also they told me when I’m wrong. Yes, I admit my family isn’t perfect, but no one is. And I wouldn’t change them for anything. I enjoy every second sped with them
i’m “babysitting” my siblings, but i’m not getting paid for it!
