nothing like a concert night with your best friends
Things haven’t been that great, a lot has been going on in the last month, at least. I don’t even know where to begin, the start should be a good idea.
Well, one of my uncles passed away a month ago, he was married to my mom’s sister. I really don’t like thinking about death, specially when one of my family is involved. I wasn’t that closed to my uncle, but i am to my cousins, they’re older than me, most of my cousins are older, but these cousins are the ones that live in the same city as me so i get to see them a little bit often. it was hard to see them so devastated and heart broken. my uncle and aunt were divorced and when i saw my cousin Patricia the first thing she told me was to not get so angry and do not hold grudges against my dad, because life is short and we don’t know when is going to end. i thought my family was invincible. yes they get sick but death that’s a whole new level. grandpa left us 18 years ago (in 3 days it’ll be 18 years) and that was it, my moms family is large she has 5 brothers and 4 sisters and we still have grandma, everyone has two kids so it’s a big family and the thought that one is gone it just hits you and i don’t like thinking who will be next or if it’s going to be soon, hopefully not.
The other thing i was supposed to graduate this december and i’m not going to. i was lazy and my lack of responsability and lazy attitude to do things got me in this mess of me staying one semester, i havent told my parents and i dont know how. i know my mom is going to be so dissapointed and i’m not sure i can deal with that. i hate doing that to her but still i do it, i don’t know what’s wrong with me.
My best friend is mad at me like big time mad at me, we just had this huge fight and i know it’s my fault, i actually told her that she should be mad at me cause i havent been there for her, now that she needs me. Something happened in her semester abroad, I was there for her when it happened, via internet at least. the thing is we don’t live in the same city, it’s actually a 2 hours flight. i wish i could be with her, damn if i could i be there, but i can’t i dont have the money for a plane ticket right now. I tried to make her understand everything will be alright, she’s just paranoid about something that might happen to her but its like 1 in a million that it can happen, and she’s making me look like i dont give a shit about it, only because i havent been available in the last 2 weeks. I don’t want to bring whats going on with me to her, how i feel right now, cause for her what she’s going through its 10 times worst. i dont know what to do.
For last, its over with the boy, yeah, we were together for 2 years and 5 months, God, i’m crying now. No one knows except my friend Ricardo, but i’m not sure how he knew. I actually thought it would never end at least not this way. I try not to think about it, when it happened i was so concentrated in finished the semester that i didnt give it a lot of thought, once i was done with school, which was last wednesday, it hit me it was over, for real and first it denial and then on friday i heard a song and i cried for maybe 3 hours, i couldnt help myself, i felt pathetic. I miss him, a lot I really do. I think at the end I wasnt enough for him and work was more important, turns out distance its a big factor. sad how everything reminds me of him, i feel pathetic and so heart broken but there’s really nothing i can do about it, but get over it and cry when i’m alone.
well that’s it, i feel like that and that’s what happened in the last month. Hope you’re all ok and doing great
Nothing like a cup of coffee with good friends :) Carolina&Carolina
found this in santiago’s lap, we were taking pictures and accidentally change it to video (you’ll see my awkward face). so we decided to say thank you to Santiago for helping us in school. we love you.
note: i dont like to wear make-up as you can see, specially for school and less if i have classes at 7 am. im the one with the white sweater, mariel is the one in the middle and alex is the guy :)
i love this picture
i won :D full house!!
Monica: It’s this dumb thing that Ross made up cause he was trying to fool our parents. It’s a way of giving the finger, without actually having to give it.
Celebrating the independence of Mexico! I’m with one of my best friends Nancy in las Vegas :).
This would be so much fun!!
for my best friends, that are always there when i need them the most.
Without saying anything they appear.
i was sitting on the hood of my friend’s car and we were looking at the sky, and suddenly i saw a shooting star. i told Omar about it and he said, make a wish quickly, do it, do it.
he was more excited about the wish.
my friday night :)
i love her <3