this is now, we went to 7/11 for some coffees, my brother is the one in the back he looks like a poster lol.

I’ve been losing weight very quickly, I lost 3 pounds in 1 day, honestly I’m not happy about this, probably this week I lost about 9 pounds. i know school is taking over me, because it’s finals and all that, and yes probably the situation between my parents have something to do, and now why not the boy. things arent easy, I don’t think it’s going to last very long, i don’t want to be a pessimistic, but he’s giving me enough reasons to give up, and i’m tired, i can’t be the only one putting some effort in the relationship, a relationship is for two and i dont think i can do it anymore. yesterday i was crying my eyes out, my stepdad saw me crying and he didnt said anything but asked my mom what was wrong with me, she didn’t know i was crying, i needed someone to be there with me and to hold me, my best friend lives in another state so she can’t be with me in moments like this and i feel like i annoyed people everytime i talk about ales, so i keep it to myself. today i was emotional again, i found an old cd and put it really loud and i was singing louder, my mom was looking at me weirdly she knows i have something but i dont want to tell, so she tooked me to the mall and i bought a gorgeous dress, i have no idea when i’m going to wear it, but i bought it. today my sister did something that was so sweet, she saw me crying while i was washing the dishes, she took a napkin and started to wipe my tears, then she hugged me and told me that everything will be ok, my 9 year old sister, wow. the people that love me are the ones that help me get me through the day.